What’s Theology Got To Do With It?

I first wrote this as a comment for a discussion thread in a group I belong to (the group is the ordained and in-process clergy of the Progressive Christian Alliance). The discussion was about how important theological conversations are as part of our Christian community. Some high-powered Ph.D.-type folks will submit posts that send me scurrying to Wikipedia for an hour. Others, often working ministers, will suggest that – at least among us clergy and maybe-someday-clergy – theological discussions are fun, and have their place, but what we really need to be talking about among ourselves is the practical stuff: how to plant a church, how to feed the hungry, how to fight on behalf of oppressed people, and so forth.

I have my own thoughts on the topic, and as most people reading this know, I’m not shy about expressing my thoughts. On the other hand, I didn’t want to get all adversarial in the online group, sounding like, “I’m right, so Rev. XYZ is wrong because he disagrees with me, and Rev. ABC is partly right because she partly agrees with me.”

Ew. Ick.

So I tried to just say what I feel, and this is what I ended up posting:

I suppose this will sound like I’m agreeing with someone or disagreeing with someone, but that’s not my intention. Read that into it if you want, but really, this is just me, speaking from the heart.

My own call – or maybe it’s more of a dream than a call – is to reach out to people who feel rejected by the church, or by God, or by Jesus, and help them find a way to understand God that lets them believe, and to feel safe doing so. I guess the big churchy word for this is evangelism, although as one raised Unitarian and currently Presbyterian, I’ll admit that the word doesn’t roll – never has rolled – readily off my tongue.

I came to my own faith in mid-life, and it’s been a source of such joy and comfort and inspiration for me that I want to share that, because my hope is that maybe, just maybe, there will be less pain in the world if I do. I’m more empathetic than perhaps is good for me, so I feel the pain in so many others whose paths cross with mine. Part of that is spiritual pain, and I want to help alleviate that.

Of course I know that God calls us to physically help the hungry, the oppressed, the poor. And of course I know that having enough to eat, and being treated decently by others, and keeping warm in the winter go a long way toward relieving pain. To talk about helping people find a relationship, or a closer relationship, with God, is not to dismiss talking about boots-on-the-ground service work.

It’s just that I believe that spiritual healing is important, too. For me, that has meant finding a radically new way to understand faith, God, the Bible, and Christianity itself. I had to tear down almost everything I “knew” before I could start building – or maybe I should say before the Spirit could start building – a life-encompassing, life-changing faith.

But maybe I’ve got it wrong. My spiritual discipline this Lenten season has not been to give something up, but to re-examine this sense of call that has had a hold on me for the past five years — not necessarily to answer all my questions (it’s only 40 days!), but to at least discern a direction, to get un-stuck. I’m in the Presbyterian ordination process, but maybe I’m not called to be a Presbyterian pastor after all. I’ve had the application for ordination in the Progressive Christian Alliance for months, but maybe I’m not called to ordained ministry there either. Maybe I’m not called to ordained ministry at all. Maybe this whole idea of “evangelism” (I can hardly believe that it’s me using that word) is on the wrong track. Maybe what God really wants me to do is to simply work to support my daughter, worship with a congregation, and spend the rest of my time volunteering at the food bank or the homeless shelter.

My point is that I don’t know how to help people find God without theologizing. I don’t know how to bust people loose from the old, broken Christian theologies without knowing what I believe, and how to express it. But maybe theological thinking is the wrong tool for the job. Maybe I just need to be a shining example of Christianity in action, so that people can see that faith isn’t a bad thing, that it’s even a good thing, and in that way, draw them in.

Either way, I’m grateful to have safe places to hold theological discussions, or even discussions of whether theology is necessary. I hope I’ll continue to find those places.

Advertisements

One thought on “What’s Theology Got To Do With It?

  1. Chris howard March 24, 2012 / 11:49 am

    Hi Jenny. I like the way you think. Reading your work helps me get clearer about my faith…such as it is. I wonder if one lifetime is enough to even approach clarity. For some reason ..that’s ok. Thank you for this essay. Love you, Chris

What do you think? Please leave a reply.

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s